What have you done today? Anything been on your mind? Feel free to go into as much detail as necessary.
I can't seem to get away from God.
>>239
All three. I can't express myself properly or figure out what to say in a conversation.
>>240
It's hard to improve that, but it's possible. If you have anxiety so it makes it a little tough or scary "practicing" with people you know, try talking with strangers. Worst case, they think "weirdo" and forget about you; best case, you make a new pal. It's really hard to become comfortable talking with folks if you don't do it much, but it has tons of great applications. Try watching television, too. It gives your mind input on how most people's speech patterns are.
My girlfriend's finishing her first finals week in college today. She's going to show me her art after the I get off work, then we'll go do stuff in town. Wonder how that'll go. I still wonder how I got a nice, sweet girl in love with me who's as far on the musical, political, philosophical, religious, and all the other spectrums as can be. Perhaps I can teach her a thing or two...
We went to a tea shop, then walked down by the river. Had some nice talks. Watched some movies.
>>243
Why don't you post about it on your facebook instead of here?
who cares
>>246
i certainly don't care about his daily life
what happened to all the fun and/or retarded threads we used to have?
>>247
dunno :_:
The computer you're sitting in front of right now is practically unlimited in its capabilities. When you purchase a game, you're paying for constraints on your computer. You're paying to do less with the machine than what it is capable. It's like having a car and paying someone to remove a wheel from it just for the sake of the challenge. Why waste time playing Minecraft when you can build things in AutoCAD?
>>244
Tokiko started both of the blog threads. He was also the first person after 0037 to post on the new world2ch. If you complain about his presence here, it just shows how ignorant you are.
On the other hand, world2ch started to really go down the shitter once his "ex" ticks came here. I'd rather have 1000 Tokikos posting here than a single tick.
oh boi
Today I met my neighbor. Her name is Stephanie and she appeared to be coming off of some drug. She came into my door in tears, with a red face and dirty hair. "Please, please, I need a phone, I don't have a phone," she pleaded. I lent her my phone for a few minutes. She comes back to my door after I hear some yelling next door. Stephanie gave me a hug, and after she glanced in my apartment, she asked me if I was a writer. I wonder if she was trying to compliment me....
Special Master Judge Grim
What an awesome title and what an awesome name to go with it.
just got a record in the mail 2day:
It's rainy so the hike was cancelled, but my girlfriend and her twin stopped by the office. It's funny how identical twins have different postures, different tones of voice, different nervous gestures and all that... now they seem as different as night and day to me. The other sister isn't attractive at all to me now...
>%20
who cares sheesh
--- Log opened Sat Dec 08 13:12:43 2012
13:12 -!- Irssi: Starting query in ??? with ticks
13:12 <ticks> hello, how are you?
13:12 <tokiko> appeal ban! apple bang!
13:13 <ticks> congrats man xD
13:14 <ticks> im gonna inject some more heroin!!!! it fucking hurts
13:14 <ticks> liar evil liar cheater liar fake liar stupid liar
13:15 <ticks> hold please
13:16 <tokiko> give it up already
13:16 <ticks> it doesnt cost very much
13:18 <ticks> tokiko have you killed yourself yet
13:19 <ticks> tokiko you're a bad person
13:19 <ticks> tokiko the only people who interact with you in life are people who want to use you in some way
13:21 <ticks> time for a nap
--- Log closed Sat Dec 08 13:21:19 2012
--- Log opened Sat Dec 08 13:21:49 2012
13:21 -!- Irssi: Starting query in ??? with ticks
13:21 <tokiko> enjoy
13:23 <ticks> her "sister" asked what was wrong
13:24 <ticks> grow up!!!! you are 29 years old
--- Log closed Sat Dec 08 13:24:01 2012
Eating is a pain. There's never anything good, no matter what I eat I'm not satisfied, and if I eat too much of something good I feel disgusted. When will humans evolve beyond the need for food?
congrats man xD
Last night mai waifu and I drank some bordeaux wine, watched NGE and did indecent things.
>>263
Same but with cheap wine, no NGE and a pillow instead of a waifu.
Mom comes into my apartment at 5:30 AM and yells at me and starts hitting me, drunk as hell. Reason? She lost her phone and I saw my sister last night, therefore I must have taken it. "Get the fuck out of my apartment, crazy bitch!" I say to her, and she says "Not until you tell me where you hid my phone, you shitbag!" Pulling on my hair and kicking over a glass of water I had set next to my bed all over my new book. Half in and half out of sleep land, I tell her that I hid it in one of her shoes. "If it's not there, I'm gonna call the cops on you, Bobby! My phone had better be in there!" With a huff, she leaves, and I lock my door before shoving a heavy bookcase against my door. Contented, I fall back to sleep...
I awoke not to policemen knocking in my door but to 45 text messages from my mother. "Does your sister know you hid my phone?" Bzz, bzz, bzz. Ignore it. "You are not welcome at my home any longer. You are an ungrateful and rude son." Just now my sister calls me on the phone, in tears. "Mom kicked me out." Why? "She said something about me being the worst daughter who'd ever lived, and I didn't even do anything!"
Having a party to celebrate my mother's recent collapse of sanity. Two cute girls, my sister, and my friend are coming over to my apartment, where we'll smoke weed, drink, and listen to some proto-punk bands. Girlfriend should be in town tomorrow; I wonder how she'll react to the news. Her home life seems incredibly stable... All I can think when I hear about bad parents is that it's a shame that certain people can reproduce. The freedom to procreate is vastly overrated. This country would be so much happier with a bit of eugenics and euthanasia. All the fuckups should get their special parts tinkered with, and if they keep fucking up, to the chopping block with them. That's the gateway out of suffering... Some illnesses can't be cured any other way.
>>263
Kill yourself.
just came back from ice skating
it was noice
>>265
What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I'll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I've been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I'm the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You're fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that's just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little "clever" comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn't, you didn't, and now you're paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will shit fury all over you and you will drown in it. You're fucking dead, kiddo.
>>266
I'm envious. Is skating hard? I've never tried it before - it just seems so tricky...somehow balancing on two thin pieces of metal on ice. ICE.
>I'm envious. Is skating hard? I've never tried it before - it just seems so tricky...somehow balancing on two thin pieces of metal on ice. ICE.
It's not that hard actually. If you have friends to talk to... It's even better. And not as boring.
>>268
Mark my words, I'll try it this winter.
But if I fall and die, I'm blaming you.
19:48:09 <%window> she's norwegian like me
19:48:51 <%Necrosage> she's pretty 'dark' so i think she's some kind of caucasian, probably armenian/georgian/azeri or something like tajik or some shit
19:49:03 <%window> i wonder
19:49:12 <%window> she told me that she was norse
19:49:30 <%Necrosage> ticks is a compulsive liar
19:49:41 <%window> true
19:49:42 <%Necrosage> she understands and speaks russian
19:49:46 <@Shinden9> She looks southeastern european
19:49:51 <@Shinden9> Not so much slav though
19:49:58 < denkyoki4> ?
19:50:02 <%Necrosage> thats why i said shes from the caucasus i think
People still think that was ticks?
Walk down the hallway. Walk down some flights of stairs. Walk down the hallway. Walk down some flight of stairs. Enter the basement and make my way to the laundry room. Load clothing in the machine. Make my way up. Hear them talk. Hear their music. Hear their TV.
An hour later, discover the clothing was put in the dryer, and that the washer costs a quarter more. Continue that treacherous journey.
Its hard to believe that at this time last year my outlook on life was so grim. I mean, in terms of my social life, things have gotten so much worse, but I feel so much better about myself. Last year, I was completely in the dumps. I was going to school without showering, wearing sandals with socks, my jeans didn't fit, I wasn't washing my hair, etc. This year, I feel like I've turned it around. I haven't gotten much better, but I certainly feel like I have.
I really hope things get better from here. I want to make it out into the real world and turn this ship around completely. I may never get to talk to awkward girl, but I'll be damned if I don't find someone else just as good or better.
I'm glad it's Monday. The weekend went by so slow.
>>273
Hello. No really, it's not. Or is it? Maybe I'm fucking with you - but in what context?
Ku ku ku . . .
Last night mai waifu and I made a nice soup, then hung out all evening. Then I witnessed someone trip out on DXM, vaporized some weed, and worked on an essay about ethics.
Did 750mg of DXM.
First of all I just want to say that shit is disgusting and I am not going near it for another couple of months preferably. Just thinking about it makes me want to puke.
Anyway, I did end up puking sometime after taking it, accidentally woke up my mother who cleaned it up and told me to go lie down. I blamed it on my pills but I'm sure she noticed the weird cough syrup smell... Oh well.
As for the trip itself, I don't remember much really, it all feels like a dream. I had some really absurd, bizarre thoughts and visions. No visual hallucinations, but some thoughts were so vivid I started to wonder if they were indeed real. I distinctly remember thinking I had gone insane permanently and was fucked - kind of paradoxical since I doubt an "insane" person would have that thought. I was terrified though. When I got up and walked it was like I was walking in very distinct steps, like I was following a guide on how to walk. My voice was also really weird I think. When responding to my mother I was telling myself "act normal" but then I blurted out some weird phrase that was completely unrelated to whatever she had asked.
All in all it was a terrifying experience. I don't think I'll repeat it that soon again, but I was left with the feeling that I didn't take enough.
Now I'm just lying in bed recovering. Slept a bit earlier but not much. Drinking water and hoping the nausea will pass. I can't precise why but I'm still feeling strange.
CRAZY
Today I bought some plane tickets to Tokyo, Japan. Leaving Wednesday for a week with the waifu. Would have been nice to be there Christmas but this will suffice.
Girlfriend still out of town. After doing some real deal python programming at work, I called up my friend X. and we smoked and hung out in thrift shops, music stores, cafes, and bookstores. Amazed once again at how flat my favorite barista's chest is. She has a nice voice but her taste in literature is absolute crap, to say nothing about her taste in philosophy and religion.
There's a homeless guy in my town who always wears a helmet and pushes around a cart with blankets and cans and stuff in it. He's the only homeless guy in my town and has some various myths attached to him (Got a 4.0 through college and got a PhD in physics, going on to teach at Stanford before his mental collapse, has an extremely wealthy family and chooses to be homeless, eats cats, etc).
Him and I chatted a bit for the first time after he shouts, "Hey, you look familiar!" about the role of the snake in Eastern religion, oscillating waves in quantum physics, transhumanism, and all that other schizo junk for a while this afternoon. He looks me in the eye, and he says that I'm not like other folks, that I'm on his frequency. "You're a snake. I'm a snake too. 2013 is the year of the snake." Then he shakes the plastic rattlesnake he carries around at me. Nice for an amateur like me to chat with a professional philosopher.
>>278
The famous rule regarding insanity is the catch #22.
>>281
Just jump out a window or something, Emily. Quick fall. Painless. Out like a light, blank before it can be changed. Your genetics aside, you had your life ruined for you early in childhood by your father. And if we look at how you live your daily life, you can't improve. The truly wise man, once overcoming all his desires and his ego, has no choice but to bring death onto himself and thus improve the world around him. Do you want to be remembered as a pitiful shell of a human or as someone who had attained enlightenment?
>>283
I didn't even post that, baka.
Today (yesterday?) I realized I have a hell of a lot of Tumblr followers, drank gin with the waifu & then we fell asleep really early.
Today I got home and I had a new screen on my desk. I don't need two and the color on it is strange and I'm not used to it! Now I have a spare screen and nothing to do with it...
>>287
so weird xD
>>288
randumb xD
It's almost 4:20AM I wonder if I should get high once more before I go to Japan?
Smoke weed every day.
>>291
I don't think there's any law that says that you can't smoke weed while using a Japanese proxy.
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The world needs more excessively-long articles detailing why "The Big Bang Theory (TV Show)" sucks.
Accidentally locked my keys in my apartment after having a meeting with a client. Went down to a friend's place (she got a new apartment) and it was 100% empty, save for her laptop and some of her clothes. We watched TV shows and listened to music while we waited for the pizza. After it came, I decided I'd call up my girlfriend and she invites me over for the night.
I slept on her couch.
"Hmm... I have x dollars in my play fund for this month."
"But I want to buy people Christmas gifts, too."
"What you ought to do is buy 100 hits of acid."
"Then sell them. Sell the acid for ridiculously high prices."
What America needs is a competent and realistic answer to the remake of "Red Dawn." I propose that this story involve North Korea deciding that its propaganda regarding American weakness/North Korean superiority is correct and sets about invading rural Oregon. Bewildered locals swiftly organize evacuations, resistance, and succeed in isolating the invaders to the least of toe-holds where they are then easily overpowered by the vastly superior US Army and Air Force. The overriding theme will basically be Americans repeatedly asking themselves and the Koreans "RU SRS?" as they initiate easy victory after easy victory. It will be a laid back bureaucratic comedy with a happy ending. This shit will sell...
My girlfriend and I went to the midnight showing of The Hobbit after I bought 3 grams of MXE from a guy online for $30. It was a great movie, though not without a few flaws. The 3D was really cool, the actors were great, the special effects were incredible... pleasant music... what bugged me though was the movie felt like it had too many "climaxes" or points where it seemed like there was going to be a calm time for plot development when yet another battle would break out. The movie's very close to the book, and the additions (new characters) serve to improve the story.
Got home at 4am alone, then felt kind of sick so I walked around my town smoking and listening to music with headphones attached to my phone. At 8am, I sent my boss an email saying that I felt awful and was barfing (it's true, the cigarettes were making me barf) and he said that it was fine if I spent a day home since 98% of the office is on vacation by now anyway. So today I'm doing my dishes.
Bought 10oz of Delsym at the store to prepare for my IRC channel's drug party tomorrow night.
I am currently reading "Broca's Brain" by Carl Sagan.
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>>307
Once again, not even me. Come on man, you used to be able to tell when I post. Stay on top of your a-game!
I've been in Japan half a week now, and it's so much fun - excluding the large crowds of people. So many people...
Yesterday we paid a visit to a meido cafe and then bought a bunch of manga and some figs. Akihabara is wonderful. Today we just rode the trains around, doing various shopping. It's great, because Japanese are small and it makes picking out the right clothes much easier. And the shops...so many cool shops. After that, we drank a bunch of Beaujolais nouveau and, well, hung out in the hotel room and bath. Tomorrow we'll visit some temples and stuff like that and see where the evening goes from there.
I come home Wednesday and I already don't want to leave. I should learn JSL and just stay here for good.
Also I'm pretty sure the hard drive in the laptop I took along is dying, nooo.
#wow #woah #blog
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We made friends with some Japanese dudes at a ramen soup stand, and they treated us to drinks. My imouto tried to out-drink them but drank too much and ended up passed out at 9PM.
my dad met my gf and her family, two bottles of 5oz dxm, i played monopoly with her and her sister, 0.8g mg of nbome, i won by a lot, polarized sunglasses, woke up with laundry done, her mom asked me to stay the night
I'm going to masturbate.
I came.
Had all kind of weird dreams last night. I wasn't the man in them, the locations and persons were unknown. The speech was accented or foreign.
Today I see a client and make $75. Tomorrow night, my girlfriend's coming over, and then the next day, I go to my dad's for the night. Tomorrow also happens to be my last day of work. I wonder when more drugs will come in the mail -- hopefully Monday or Tuesday, it'd be fun to throw a party!
Mai waifu and I are home from Japan. We had a great time. If I get this programming job I was offered before moving, I'll have to take her somewhere since this was all her idea. Maybe to Ireland or something.
I got a deal on 6 grams of ketamine & 48 MDMA capsules. Woo.
just came back from watching the hobbit
best new movie
>>325
You don't need a scale. Weight out a gram, split it 5 ways, and snort.
Hmm. Looks like that ex girlfriend (2009 or so) became an ex boyfriend (late 2012). I didn't know what she was interested in switching genders, but she did have a severe case of penis envy.
>>326
And how are you supposed to make sure you split it evenly?
>>328
Eyeball it. Or take it all, and kill yourself, ticks.
Today I went to the doctors followed by a job interview for the worst game company ever (I almost hope they don't hire me), and took some MDMA.
>>330
Shut up, TheShadowFog. You don't even blog, you just xDDDDD SH/ITPOSTIMG #im13LELLELLELhttp://iktf.org
Today I had Christmas dinner at work. On my way home, I ran into my girlfriend, who was walking towards my office to say hi. We walked home through the awful hail and made out on my couch. Then we got some french fries and steak and stuff at the restaurant that my sister works for and we played a game of Scrabble. We came to my house again after that and played a few games of rummy. My dad mailed me some post-hardcore albums for Christmas so I showed some of them to her. She thought it was metal music.... we had some good casual discussions about religion. I touched her breasts and then she invited me to spend Christmas with her family.
My blood sugar went down to 40 because I walked her home. I was really shaky and dizzy and almost passed out. Luckily I could buy a soda and chug it down. Tonight I'll conduct yet another consciousness experiment before taking the bus to my dad's place tomorrow at 8am. Bus fare is only $11, lucky me! Hopefully I don't get a low blood sugar on the bus. I'm going to walk to the store to buy some candies just to avoid such a misfortune now (as well as picking up some crisps to celebrate my time off). My grandfather's Christmas check for $100 and the $50 from the woman whose computer I repaired should be enough to buy my girlfriend a decent Christmas present.
>Shut up, TheShadowFog. You don't even blog, you just xDDDDD SH/ITPOSTIMG #im13LELLELLELhttp://iktf.org
I have never seen so much buttmad in my life.
Seriously. Calm down.
Tonight I decided I won't take the job if I'm offered it. For one, game development isn't really something I find to be at all interesting. Nor is the pay isn't even good and talking with some friends who've worked for them, they make you work 436589 hours a week. Instead, I'll look elsewhere and in the mean time, focus on my art once again. It's been a couple years since I've been dedicated to anything or any projects, and I have a lot of ideas and will to do something.
I also love MDMA. My girlfriend and I have been rolling around all evening.
