What have you done today? Anything been on your mind? Feel free to go into as much detail as necessary.
On to other news: I couldn't go to the play (>>130). Mai waifu fell ill with the flu. Instead, I bought her a bunch of tea and medicine and bought a bottle of wine for myself and have been programming as well as reading and discussing the philosophy of aesthetics with someone. I've made a cool little program that utilizes a P8X32A microcontroller and a breadboard (using this unique object based language called SPIN). It simply takes some low quality .gif images (like...3bit dithering level at best) and glitches them all up, based on RGB profiles so it ends up creating some rather nice looking glitchy gradients. You can combine multiple images and get some really cool results, though it's mostly up to chance. Dying to play some LoL with some IRC pals however all but my decade old netbook is packed away and 500000000 kilometers across the country now, so it can't run it.
It also snowed! This makes me very happy.
>>134
There's some truth to your post. Truth is, I wouldn't have figured out she was a girl if she didn't straight out tell me "I'm a girl" a while back.
>>137
Not many really know unless they ask, look at my irssi username, or happen to come across what I presume are posts where Tokiko is raging about me, since there are only 2 people I know that call me by my name (him being one of them). Besides, guys can wear thigh highs too! There were no implications of gender in my post.
I wear thigh highs all the time, it helps me cum.
No, LSD is wonderful.
LSD is pretty terrible.
Last night I accidentally took a bunch of benzos, felt really great and then napped. Then I woke up, went out to visit a friend who wouldn't let me go until we finished his vodka, then I wandered home in the snow in the middle of the night. A fine Saturdey night I must say.
More benzos...more benzos...damn it's Monday already! At least I got a lot of writings down over the weekend.
Today I had to wake up at 6 to go to the hospital. When I got there I puked and passed out for a few minutes. Now I feel very dizzy, can't focus and my stomach hurts so I just caught the bus home and will spend the rest of the day in bed sleeping, then reading or watching anime once I feel better. What a waste of time that was.
THERE ARE PEOPLE OUTSIDE OF MY WINDOW
>>147
There are people outside my window too, that's called the outside world.
I'm suddenly remembering a post I read here about why there won't be a world2ch imageboard, and I want to respond to it, but can't find it.
Anyways, I don't want an imageboard, but 0037's reason (old threads on the front page) isn't really that big of an issue when people are still replying to those threads.
Again, I DO NOT want a world2ch imageboard.
I accidentally over 800mg of DXM.
Oh man that was fucked up.
DXM starts becoming toxic around 25 to 30 mg/kg (about 1700-2000 mg for adult of 150 lb).
Clearly the solution is to put on 300 Lbs...
NOPE. Not doing this today.
>>155
What did I miss?
Who cares!
I love internet drama!
Let's not turn world2ch into Drama/General please! Take it easy everyone.
>>158
:3
>>151
Who are you? How did you take so much? Highest I've ever done was close to 1000, and I completely dissociated from my senses... it was amazing...
On a related note:
http://4x13.net/blog/index.pl/drugs/acid.html
gud blog post
>>163
There was...uh...ah...a miscalculation of sorts. What I thought was roughly 400mg was not so. Suffice to say, the effects were not as incipient as I would have preferred. The whole experience actualizing itself in such a sudden way threw me into a panic at the start. I went from reading and talking with someone, to what felt like melting away into a heap of pillows, while my thoughts fragmented into millions of little pieces. I could not maintain any train of thought for some time. After what was apparently only an hour, I was slightly more composed and completely inundated with feelings of empathy toward others. I was very content and contemplative. As time progressed, minor visual closed eye visuals began to form and I lost myself in those until it all somewhat subsided - waking up the next day where I originally began.
It was the first time I've done this in many years, so it had a sense of vague familiarity. I can't say it was really all that amazing, perhaps due to the fact the large dose was not anticipated, and I still had some feelings of anxiety that lingered around despite the realization I took twice the dose I was intending - this is probably why I was not as disassociated as I have been in previous experiments. As with any psychedelic, it's best not to utilize them when the mind is in any sort of "negative" state of mind (those familiar with DMT will especially related this), and I felt this kind of benumbed certain effects DXM is capable of producing in the mind. I'm on the fence about it, but I may repeat the experience this evening, approaching it more calmly and introspectively.
One thing I've noticed about DXM is that it sure interrupts your REM sleep, causing you (or, at least me) to consistently wake up. Despite this, you don't feel all that fatigued or enervated the next day. I was lucky to get...3 hours sleep, yet felt great the next day.
>>166
It disrupts your serotonin levels, so it's natural you'd have difficulty sleeping and feel tired for a few days. The 25c I took's been treating me the same, though not so severely as a 800mg trip on DXM. Did you accidentally take more once you were high without realizing you were? That's happened to me a few times. I've noticed that I've been able to use DXM as a replacement for sleep if I take it at the level where I can have strong closed-eye visualizations.
DXM is a hallucinogenic drug, but it is not a psychedelic drug. It is a dissociative because it acts on the NMDA receptors (like PCP and Ketamine do) rather than the 5-HT receptors which psychedelics typically affect. Not using drugs in negative states applies to a wide variety of drugs as well. Ever gotten shitfaced drunk while feeling suicidal? Not fun. On the other hand, I feel that bad trips teach us more about ourselves, and I've found them to be much more memorable.
If you plan on doing it again so soon, you're an idiot. Frequent usage of DXM is very, very hard on your body. Take breaks based on the number of weeks times the plateau you reached. If you're to be safe, you should take a 3 or 4 week break. How could you go that high and want to repeat the experience so soon? Take care of your body! Don't just abuse substances to "get high," treat them with the respect both you and they deserve. Hallucinogenic drugs are tools, not toys.
Did you barf? What did you see? Were you able to experience ego death or have an out of body experience? Post more about your trip.
I spent an hour watching japanese kids play in a playground through an online security camera... What am I doing with my life?
Also world2ch - Drugs/General?
I did a bit more DXM, this time along with some Xanax and Suboxone (though the latter two were taken prior, so I wasn't particularly intending to get "high" off them). I was strangely coherent, and spent the night talking away with a great friend of mine. I had a lot of wonderful thoughts. Life is really amazing if you will it to be. As bold and intrepid this claim may be, I believe I will stop using drugs now (okay, with the exception of the occasional drink, though I wish to cut that out over time). There is nothing really left for me to "discover" about them or myself through their use. Been there, done that - as they say. Now it's time for quiet contemplation in the mountains (literally...since I'm moving soon...I can pretend to be some enlightened charlatan and write about it all and shit out some epik bookz like Burroughs and leave my mark on the world - ok not really).
>>168
I remember doing that with /jp/ many years ago. There was this one camera (that you could actually control) in a gymnasium at a primary school, and we'd all take turns controlling it. There was this one unforgettable kid who would always look at the camera as it moved - the only one to actually notice it, and we'd all take screenshots of him. He became something of a hero. I wonder how he is today.
Bought a gram of ketamine and another gram of methoxetamine off of Silk Road last night. The guy said he'd mail me some free MDMA with it (3 pills) so I figured, cool, right on. It only cost about $60 for, say, 20 total dissociative trips, which is cheaper than DXM -- and with less nausea. Can't wait to see how it goes. The only downside is that I'll have to buy a new scale, but if I offer a friend some of my stuff I'm sure he'd buy one.
>>173
https://www.google.com/search?q=%22trip+report%22+drugs
When did you become so stupid, Robert? That dextromethorphan is destroying your brain. Cough syrup really isn't worth the high.
>>174
Eh? I'm not Tokiko. I know what a trip report is of course - my post was intended to be sarcastic. I feel no need to write up some pompous essay about how fucked I got on cough syrup (or any drug), then post it on the internet as if it contains any importance or revelations into the human consciousness. I'm not that conceited nor do I give a fuck. Drugs are drugs - pure escapism. Okay, I had a phase when I was young and doing psychedelics and thought "Wow, man! These things are great, I'm learning so much about myself and shit!" but I don't think like that anymore. Sure you get some deep thoughts on them but I personally don't believe they're some "key" to unlocking hidden truths or something haha. Though people are free to believe what they want.
Though, if you'd like, here's a trip report: I was bored, happened to be grocery shopping and walked down the pharmacy isle. I spotted the DXM and thought "Hmm, I haven't done this stuff in at least 6 years - let's give it a shot!" I drank some, had a fun time, the end.
Back on topic: I received a cute Akari Mizunashi fig in the mail today. They really need to do another season of Aria.
And yes I'm aware I just used isle in place of aisle. (´・ω・`)
Tokiko, I am concerned for your mental health. It can't be good for you to be using all these drugs.
>>179
Do you think that ticks will be mentioned in his suicide note?
That feel when you can't sleep.
OK. Online Touhou character identifier. Is there one? Like basically you can query against character features: tail, ears, wings, etc. and narrow it down to a list of possibilities?
If there isn't, I'm going to make one and limit all queries to superficial characteristics (and provide no information regarding their background/place in the games). This will provide access to the universe to casuals (such as myself) and in so doing, annoy the fuck out of the autistic.
As annoying the autistic is the only way to get into heaven in our religion, I think this might make me a saint.
>>180
Which one is dating ticks again? Tokiko, shadowfog, or archduke? They all kinda meld together as one to me.
>>183
If I had to guess honestly, I'd say ticks it tokiko pretending to be a girl.
The official storyline, as I understand it is that she is dating no one. Tokiko did carry on with her online for awhile, went to visit her, and got DENIED, like in public with a sound system and pyrotechnic display. Well, actually she just ignored him and was kind of a bitch to him. How was he acting? Like a proper gentleman, obviously. We have to take his word for it.
Always one to take rejection gracefully, Tokiko then started to spread rumors about her online. I don't recall that she ever specifically denied the allegations, which may be telling. She likely is pretty fucked up because she does hang out on the fringes of this world. What would you expect? Sane, nice, sober, healthy, and attractive? I'd be surprised if you could check off even one of those of any girl that visits this place (and it's probably going to be "nice").
I wish she'd come back. They put on a good show.
>>183
Last I heard, Archduke was dating Klang, TheShadowFog was dating Sprum, and ticks WAS Tokiko.
Who's your OTP?
>>185
I think that's every user on this site. Will I die alone?
>>184
I'm still here! Don't worry, haven't gone anywhere. Tokiko seems to have slipped into a cough syrup induced obscurity, though. Kind of curious why - bored, or has he lost it? I haven't kept up with him either. I might have unintentionally chased him off his usual lurking grounds, if this post is anything to go by - http://4-ch.net/dqn/kareha.pl/1353182673/159 - but I truly don't know. Last I heard he was now seeing some girl, working, playing DOTA and drinking quite heavily nearly every day.
Anyway, I never did meet him (there really was nothing between us in the end). I think you're confusing me with the other girl he met on Twitter or Facebook after we sort of stopped talking. He drove across the state to meet her, but she basically ignored him the entire time and only talked to her sister and mother, who came along for the date/to cock block him. Denied as you say. After that she ignored him for about 2 months until he went to get some philosophy books back that he gave her. She was, from what I understand, quite unstable as well so that most likely explains the lack of...interest.
He did rage about me online for a bit but no one seemed to care anyway because I'm fairly obscure. Alas, that's the end of the show!
It's in some respects disappointing to have this all explicated, as it was kind of interesting to see all this as through a glass darkly, being one of the few people who haunts small anonymous textboards but not IRC.
>>188 is a fabrication, everything about it.
Well, I did meet a girl from twitter twice; once, I took the bus up to Seattle (across the state) to hang out with her, the other time I had my sister give me a ride down to Portland where my dad lives to see her (that was when her sister and mom came along). We saw each other for a third time before I blocked her in disgust because she hadn't read any of the books she'd lent me.
The main reason why I stopped talking to her is because, like ticks, she suffered from DID. She would hallucinate, have delusions, misremember some things, and forget other things. She was also a massive weeaboo with an IQ of about 90.
ticks and I shared a hotel room in California for Anime Expo in the spring. We did MDMA and had a wild time. Then, she came to Oregon once during the summer for two weeks. We got together pretty well, but ticks's sister threatened to beat her up and rape her more after she got home, so ticks caved in to her sister's pressure. I've never had any direct communication with her sister, so it could be her schizophrenia acting up or an excuse to break up. Either way, things are how they are.
How weak! Now she's lying about me on textboards and stretching the facts in various ways! No one on /jp/ other than ticks has ever met me in person, so there's no way I can verify that we've met... but still, how far she's fallen! By the way... Emily, you don't live in Washington DC, so why does your IP address say you do? I have a feeling that you're a crule imposter.
I trust Robert on this because he's not suffering from schizophrenia or MPD.
0087 please wordfilter everyone's first names to something silly.
>>193
*0037
they're right next to each other in the keyboard that exists in my head orz
I suggest dictators of the world.
My girlfriend and I went down to a small movie theater in my area. There's couches and stuff in it, and since it's a Thursday night no one was there but us. Her face was really bright red when we left and walked up to my place where we continued.
Snorted 25mg of MXE and 'laxin with Metal Machine Music. On side 2 now -- great stuff! http://grooveshark.com/#!/album/Metal+Machine+Music/597104
>>190
Remember when you told me your IQ was 184? Roughly 1 in 1'000'000 people score that high. You're a true genius. (･ω･｀)
I'm really into this particular girl but I'll never get to have her how despairing. ;_;
>ticks and I shared a hotel room in California for Anime Expo in the spring.
Interesting. Review your notes and prepare to backpedal...
This is a really good show. Shit's getting complicated now. We're going to give Lost a run for it's money...
>>199
We had a wild time until Tokiko couldn't get it up. "I-it's not my fault...stimulants do that, you know?" he vehemently insisted. He was VERY embarrassed about that, and literally broke down into tears for about 6 hours straight. It was a little weird (it was also little, heh heh heh) and he refused to leave the hotel room the entire weekend despite my efforts to cheer him up. Poor kid! I can't imagine how he must have felt about it.
Sadly, the whole affair became nothing more than a wasted page in my passport book, but at least I can take credit for being the only person on /jp/ to have met him. An privilege, truly.
It's http://cerealexperiments.com/files/images/fridey.jpg night! My last night in this city, then I move out to BC to the new house my girlfriend and I bought. Unfortunately I can't drive, so it'll be one heck of a long trip.
Why does world2ch go down in the mornings?
>>197
It's true that I've scored that high in the past, but I still haven't accomplished anything. Sadly, IQ is only an indicator of potential. It'll still take time until I can write well enough to really bedazzle, impress, and amaze.
>>199
I said on /jp/ that I couldn't make it to AX so that people wouldn't look for me. You should really think about the things we're saying... ticks also didn't want to be photographed at AX, and I'm sure her anxiety would spiral out of control if people spammed photos of us walking around together. No comment on >>200, ticks's body, or ticks's various psychological problems relating to sex with men. Consider what her motivation could be to fabricate sexual escapades on world2ch, and what results could occur from her publications.
One thing I've been thinking about lately: satori is no different from the K-hole or fourth plateau dextromethorphan high and is roughly equivalent to the eighth circuit of consciousness in Leary's map of the human mind. However, what makes Buddhism's enlightenment so special is that the method relies on no drugs, no starvation, no sleep deprivation -- nothing but awareness, concentration, and patience. The eight circuits of consciousness mention psionic and mystical powers which shifts in consciousness unlock. While there is no such thing as magic or superhuman psychic ability, it is worth noting that the sensation of psychic enablement is no different subjectively than the actualization of such powers.
I need to do more thinking on the human mind and enlightenment. The way which psychologists link drug favoritism to levels of mental development is interesting; heroin lovers at the very bottom of the human race, and dextromethorphan fans at the top? All very interesting...
How did you guys get to LA for the convention?
>>203
I'm just playing along dear, it's fun. Though you know as well as I do you've never truly seen me, heard me, talked to me and so on. Ah...however I'll be a short 4 hours away from you as of next week! Come visit. Come to think of it, I'll be close to a lot of people I know from the internet.
Hmm. Today I said goodbye to my psychiatrist. I'm going to really miss her, she was nice and loved to talk philosophy with me. I gave her a little present to say thank you, and she gave me this intriguing book in return. Tonight I'm having some people over as well, but I can't decide if I should join in the drinking one last time or not. Such convoluted decisions I must make in life.
Heh... come on. How did you get to LA? This totally isn't a trap. Just an innocent question...
>>206
I hate to spoil the fun but we didn't actually hang out. We're just kidding around...or I did.
I mean am. Hah.
Is it me or do italics not work here anymore? I can only be bold.
>>209
B-but I am Tokiko. I think...or has this all been one big delusion, brought on by too many dissociative hallucinogenic drugs, experiments into consciousness, enlightenment and philalethia? Oh dear, the confusion. I fear we may never know the truth.
> his was addressed to Tokiko (so probably also you/fuck I'm confused now).
Oh, this is a matter of confusion to people who are part of the clique too? Interesting.
I shall whine and I shall wine. And I am the most wittiest and cleverest little shota in the world. Let us pray.
Where or how can I get a shota please help?
I hate waking up and the house is freezing cold. Too cold to get out of bed, but seemingly too cold to stay in bed.
I'm getting on the plane soon to go to my new home near Vancouver. I'll be living a lot closer to Tokiko in my new home, too... Deep down inside, I hope he's forgiven me for all of the lying and cheating and mental torment I've subjected him to by burdening him with my problems and then getting into more. You're one of the reasons I'm moving west, you dummy! Even with all of the silly things you've posted about me online, I've never stopped loving you (´・ω・｀)
>>216
Baka, I'm not going to be anywhere near Vancouver.
Though yes, I'm (ticks) am actually moving this morning. See you dorks in 3 days, give or take! Anyone cool in the Vancouver/Seattle area want to hang out for tea and keki when I get there? You'll need a car of your own though (sorry Tokiko).
God I hate moving...should have seriously just flown over and sold the car.
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This thread has officially turned to shit.
>>219
The whole site sort of turned to shit when this thread became the only active one left.
I might be able to do interesting things in a couple of weeks. I look forward to it. Now I just have to find a way to survive the two weeks until then...
Bought some William S. Burroughs books (Junkie, Queer, The Soft Machine, The Ticket that Exploded, Nova Express, The Wild Boys), some Lester Bangs books (Psychotic Reactions and Carburetor Dung, as well as Main Lines, Blood Feasts, and Bad Taste), some more druggy writings (Prometheus Rising, Programming and Metaprogramming in the Human Biocomputer), Joseph Campbell's Hero's Journey, and the Dhammapada. Gonna buy some more books tomorrow, any works you ginnernucts would recommend?
I made it to Winnipeg in a day! Fuck the roads were so twisty and turny in Northern Ontario. If it was one straight line - okay it would take 3 hours, but nope they have to turn every other 800 meters. Just drags the trip out. At least the altitude is still low, so you don't get sick or anything. Now...to drive through the prairies...they're as flat as a loli and go on for ever and ever. This will be by far the worst leg of my journey.
WINNIPEG IS A FROZEN SHITHOLE 10 hipster points if you get the reference.
>>223
Wow, I was about to go out and buy shitty books, but then your message (marvel of clarity and brevity it is) guided me into returning all the books I bought yesterdat and purchasing much better books. Pat yourself on the back, FUCKTARD
pls close this thread 0037
Just close the board. I'm serious. The only threads in the last year have been these blog threads, and this particular recent one has been just been Tokiko fighting with his alternate persona "ticks" who we all know is just himself.
It's really embarrassing for anyone who happens to stroll along and find this place.
>>228
Embarrassing for ticks, maybe
Today I saw my endocrinologist. He kept saying perfect, perfect, perfect, perfect. Nice to hear, I guess. Now I'm taking a train to California.
There's some kind of addict sitting on the train south across from me. Those eyes... twitchy, jerky, shifty, his fingers doing their own disrythmic dance through the cycles of paranoid closure and fearful aggression. Now and then he closes his eyes and lets out a small shudder for good luck. His eyes find my body when I look away.
Archduke: stop being a dick kthx.
Today at work, my girlfriend came up to me and talked with me some, then before she left to do some other business, she gave me a big hug and told me that she loved me for the first time. I smiled and hugged her back and told her that I loved her too. She was bright red and had a huge grin.
From the period of 6PM through midnight of yesterday, I have no memory, but when I kind of "came to" I was talking on the phone with some guy from IRC (a seventeen year old acid dealer whose father died in a plane wreck with very wealthy folks and a trust fund, my memory is telling me), there was barf in my trashbin, and there were all of these weird notes in my latest journal. Lester Bangs's album was also playing on loop over the noise of Metal Machine Music. My eyes are bright red and I've been feeling sick and kind of dizzy all day. But hey, even if I'm a little sick, I'm incredibly happy! Things are great!
One of my stories I'd written was about people being tortured and cut up in a factory ran by pigs. The premise isn't very exciting, but it's awfully descriptive and has a lot of interesting allusions in it. I'm proud of myself.
