What have you done today? Anything been on your mind? Feel free to go into as much detail as necessary.
It's http://cerealexperiments.com/files/images/fridey.jpg night! My last night in this city, then I move out to BC to the new house my girlfriend and I bought. Unfortunately I can't drive, so it'll be one heck of a long trip.
Why does world2ch go down in the mornings?
>>197
It's true that I've scored that high in the past, but I still haven't accomplished anything. Sadly, IQ is only an indicator of potential. It'll still take time until I can write well enough to really bedazzle, impress, and amaze.
>>199
I said on /jp/ that I couldn't make it to AX so that people wouldn't look for me. You should really think about the things we're saying... ticks also didn't want to be photographed at AX, and I'm sure her anxiety would spiral out of control if people spammed photos of us walking around together. No comment on >>200, ticks's body, or ticks's various psychological problems relating to sex with men. Consider what her motivation could be to fabricate sexual escapades on world2ch, and what results could occur from her publications.
One thing I've been thinking about lately: satori is no different from the K-hole or fourth plateau dextromethorphan high and is roughly equivalent to the eighth circuit of consciousness in Leary's map of the human mind. However, what makes Buddhism's enlightenment so special is that the method relies on no drugs, no starvation, no sleep deprivation -- nothing but awareness, concentration, and patience. The eight circuits of consciousness mention psionic and mystical powers which shifts in consciousness unlock. While there is no such thing as magic or superhuman psychic ability, it is worth noting that the sensation of psychic enablement is no different subjectively than the actualization of such powers.
I need to do more thinking on the human mind and enlightenment. The way which psychologists link drug favoritism to levels of mental development is interesting; heroin lovers at the very bottom of the human race, and dextromethorphan fans at the top? All very interesting...
How did you guys get to LA for the convention?
>>203
I'm just playing along dear, it's fun. Though you know as well as I do you've never truly seen me, heard me, talked to me and so on. Ah...however I'll be a short 4 hours away from you as of next week! Come visit. Come to think of it, I'll be close to a lot of people I know from the internet.
Hmm. Today I said goodbye to my psychiatrist. I'm going to really miss her, she was nice and loved to talk philosophy with me. I gave her a little present to say thank you, and she gave me this intriguing book in return. Tonight I'm having some people over as well, but I can't decide if I should join in the drinking one last time or not. Such convoluted decisions I must make in life.
Heh... come on. How did you get to LA? This totally isn't a trap. Just an innocent question...
>>206
I hate to spoil the fun but we didn't actually hang out. We're just kidding around...or I did.
I mean am. Hah.
Is it me or do italics not work here anymore? I can only be bold.
>>209
B-but I am Tokiko. I think...or has this all been one big delusion, brought on by too many dissociative hallucinogenic drugs, experiments into consciousness, enlightenment and philalethia? Oh dear, the confusion. I fear we may never know the truth.
> his was addressed to Tokiko (so probably also you/fuck I'm confused now).
Oh, this is a matter of confusion to people who are part of the clique too? Interesting.
I shall whine and I shall wine. And I am the most wittiest and cleverest little shota in the world. Let us pray.
Where or how can I get a shota please help?
I hate waking up and the house is freezing cold. Too cold to get out of bed, but seemingly too cold to stay in bed.
I'm getting on the plane soon to go to my new home near Vancouver. I'll be living a lot closer to Tokiko in my new home, too... Deep down inside, I hope he's forgiven me for all of the lying and cheating and mental torment I've subjected him to by burdening him with my problems and then getting into more. You're one of the reasons I'm moving west, you dummy! Even with all of the silly things you've posted about me online, I've never stopped loving you (´・ω・｀)
>>216
Baka, I'm not going to be anywhere near Vancouver.
Though yes, I'm (ticks) am actually moving this morning. See you dorks in 3 days, give or take! Anyone cool in the Vancouver/Seattle area want to hang out for tea and keki when I get there? You'll need a car of your own though (sorry Tokiko).
God I hate moving...should have seriously just flown over and sold the car.
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FUCK I CANMOST DEIFNTEL TKAE ON THE ALL YALL IN A FIST FIGGHT
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This thread has officially turned to shit.
>>219
The whole site sort of turned to shit when this thread became the only active one left.
I might be able to do interesting things in a couple of weeks. I look forward to it. Now I just have to find a way to survive the two weeks until then...
Bought some William S. Burroughs books (Junkie, Queer, The Soft Machine, The Ticket that Exploded, Nova Express, The Wild Boys), some Lester Bangs books (Psychotic Reactions and Carburetor Dung, as well as Main Lines, Blood Feasts, and Bad Taste), some more druggy writings (Prometheus Rising, Programming and Metaprogramming in the Human Biocomputer), Joseph Campbell's Hero's Journey, and the Dhammapada. Gonna buy some more books tomorrow, any works you ginnernucts would recommend?
I made it to Winnipeg in a day! Fuck the roads were so twisty and turny in Northern Ontario. If it was one straight line - okay it would take 3 hours, but nope they have to turn every other 800 meters. Just drags the trip out. At least the altitude is still low, so you don't get sick or anything. Now...to drive through the prairies...they're as flat as a loli and go on for ever and ever. This will be by far the worst leg of my journey.
WINNIPEG IS A FROZEN SHITHOLE 10 hipster points if you get the reference.
>>223
Wow, I was about to go out and buy shitty books, but then your message (marvel of clarity and brevity it is) guided me into returning all the books I bought yesterdat and purchasing much better books. Pat yourself on the back, FUCKTARD
pls close this thread 0037
Just close the board. I'm serious. The only threads in the last year have been these blog threads, and this particular recent one has been just been Tokiko fighting with his alternate persona "ticks" who we all know is just himself.
It's really embarrassing for anyone who happens to stroll along and find this place.
>>228
Embarrassing for ticks, maybe
Today I saw my endocrinologist. He kept saying perfect, perfect, perfect, perfect. Nice to hear, I guess. Now I'm taking a train to California.
There's some kind of addict sitting on the train south across from me. Those eyes... twitchy, jerky, shifty, his fingers doing their own disrythmic dance through the cycles of paranoid closure and fearful aggression. Now and then he closes his eyes and lets out a small shudder for good luck. His eyes find my body when I look away.
Archduke: stop being a dick kthx.
Today at work, my girlfriend came up to me and talked with me some, then before she left to do some other business, she gave me a big hug and told me that she loved me for the first time. I smiled and hugged her back and told her that I loved her too. She was bright red and had a huge grin.
From the period of 6PM through midnight of yesterday, I have no memory, but when I kind of "came to" I was talking on the phone with some guy from IRC (a seventeen year old acid dealer whose father died in a plane wreck with very wealthy folks and a trust fund, my memory is telling me), there was barf in my trashbin, and there were all of these weird notes in my latest journal. Lester Bangs's album was also playing on loop over the noise of Metal Machine Music. My eyes are bright red and I've been feeling sick and kind of dizzy all day. But hey, even if I'm a little sick, I'm incredibly happy! Things are great!
One of my stories I'd written was about people being tortured and cut up in a factory ran by pigs. The premise isn't very exciting, but it's awfully descriptive and has a lot of interesting allusions in it. I'm proud of myself.
I can't seem to get away from God.
>>239
All three. I can't express myself properly or figure out what to say in a conversation.
>>240
It's hard to improve that, but it's possible. If you have anxiety so it makes it a little tough or scary "practicing" with people you know, try talking with strangers. Worst case, they think "weirdo" and forget about you; best case, you make a new pal. It's really hard to become comfortable talking with folks if you don't do it much, but it has tons of great applications. Try watching television, too. It gives your mind input on how most people's speech patterns are.
My girlfriend's finishing her first finals week in college today. She's going to show me her art after the I get off work, then we'll go do stuff in town. Wonder how that'll go. I still wonder how I got a nice, sweet girl in love with me who's as far on the musical, political, philosophical, religious, and all the other spectrums as can be. Perhaps I can teach her a thing or two...
We went to a tea shop, then walked down by the river. Had some nice talks. Watched some movies.
>>243
Why don't you post about it on your facebook instead of here?
who cares
>>246
i certainly don't care about his daily life
what happened to all the fun and/or retarded threads we used to have?
>>247
dunno :_:
The computer you're sitting in front of right now is practically unlimited in its capabilities. When you purchase a game, you're paying for constraints on your computer. You're paying to do less with the machine than what it is capable. It's like having a car and paying someone to remove a wheel from it just for the sake of the challenge. Why waste time playing Minecraft when you can build things in AutoCAD?
>>244
Tokiko started both of the blog threads. He was also the first person after 0037 to post on the new world2ch. If you complain about his presence here, it just shows how ignorant you are.
On the other hand, world2ch started to really go down the shitter once his "ex" ticks came here. I'd rather have 1000 Tokikos posting here than a single tick.
oh boi
Today I met my neighbor. Her name is Stephanie and she appeared to be coming off of some drug. She came into my door in tears, with a red face and dirty hair. "Please, please, I need a phone, I don't have a phone," she pleaded. I lent her my phone for a few minutes. She comes back to my door after I hear some yelling next door. Stephanie gave me a hug, and after she glanced in my apartment, she asked me if I was a writer. I wonder if she was trying to compliment me....
Special Master Judge Grim
What an awesome title and what an awesome name to go with it.
just got a record in the mail 2day:
It's rainy so the hike was cancelled, but my girlfriend and her twin stopped by the office. It's funny how identical twins have different postures, different tones of voice, different nervous gestures and all that... now they seem as different as night and day to me. The other sister isn't attractive at all to me now...
>%20
who cares sheesh
--- Log opened Sat Dec 08 13:12:43 2012
13:12 -!- Irssi: Starting query in ??? with ticks
13:12 <ticks> hello, how are you?
13:12 <tokiko> appeal ban! apple bang!
13:13 <ticks> congrats man xD
13:14 <ticks> im gonna inject some more heroin!!!! it fucking hurts
13:14 <ticks> liar evil liar cheater liar fake liar stupid liar
13:15 <ticks> hold please
13:16 <tokiko> give it up already
13:16 <ticks> it doesnt cost very much
13:18 <ticks> tokiko have you killed yourself yet
13:19 <ticks> tokiko you're a bad person
13:19 <ticks> tokiko the only people who interact with you in life are people who want to use you in some way
13:21 <ticks> time for a nap
--- Log closed Sat Dec 08 13:21:19 2012
--- Log opened Sat Dec 08 13:21:49 2012
13:21 -!- Irssi: Starting query in ??? with ticks
13:21 <tokiko> enjoy
13:23 <ticks> her "sister" asked what was wrong
13:24 <ticks> grow up!!!! you are 29 years old
--- Log closed Sat Dec 08 13:24:01 2012
Eating is a pain. There's never anything good, no matter what I eat I'm not satisfied, and if I eat too much of something good I feel disgusted. When will humans evolve beyond the need for food?
congrats man xD
Last night mai waifu and I drank some bordeaux wine, watched NGE and did indecent things.
>>263
Same but with cheap wine, no NGE and a pillow instead of a waifu.
Mom comes into my apartment at 5:30 AM and yells at me and starts hitting me, drunk as hell. Reason? She lost her phone and I saw my sister last night, therefore I must have taken it. "Get the fuck out of my apartment, crazy bitch!" I say to her, and she says "Not until you tell me where you hid my phone, you shitbag!" Pulling on my hair and kicking over a glass of water I had set next to my bed all over my new book. Half in and half out of sleep land, I tell her that I hid it in one of her shoes. "If it's not there, I'm gonna call the cops on you, Bobby! My phone had better be in there!" With a huff, she leaves, and I lock my door before shoving a heavy bookcase against my door. Contented, I fall back to sleep...
I awoke not to policemen knocking in my door but to 45 text messages from my mother. "Does your sister know you hid my phone?" Bzz, bzz, bzz. Ignore it. "You are not welcome at my home any longer. You are an ungrateful and rude son." Just now my sister calls me on the phone, in tears. "Mom kicked me out." Why? "She said something about me being the worst daughter who'd ever lived, and I didn't even do anything!"
Having a party to celebrate my mother's recent collapse of sanity. Two cute girls, my sister, and my friend are coming over to my apartment, where we'll smoke weed, drink, and listen to some proto-punk bands. Girlfriend should be in town tomorrow; I wonder how she'll react to the news. Her home life seems incredibly stable... All I can think when I hear about bad parents is that it's a shame that certain people can reproduce. The freedom to procreate is vastly overrated. This country would be so much happier with a bit of eugenics and euthanasia. All the fuckups should get their special parts tinkered with, and if they keep fucking up, to the chopping block with them. That's the gateway out of suffering... Some illnesses can't be cured any other way.
>>263
Kill yourself.
just came back from ice skating
it was noice
>>265
What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I'll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I've been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I'm the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You're fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that's just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little "clever" comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn't, you didn't, and now you're paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will shit fury all over you and you will drown in it. You're fucking dead, kiddo.
>>266
I'm envious. Is skating hard? I've never tried it before - it just seems so tricky...somehow balancing on two thin pieces of metal on ice. ICE.
>I'm envious. Is skating hard? I've never tried it before - it just seems so tricky...somehow balancing on two thin pieces of metal on ice. ICE.
It's not that hard actually. If you have friends to talk to... It's even better. And not as boring.
>>268
Mark my words, I'll try it this winter.
But if I fall and die, I'm blaming you.
19:48:09 <%window> she's norwegian like me
19:48:51 <%Necrosage> she's pretty 'dark' so i think she's some kind of caucasian, probably armenian/georgian/azeri or something like tajik or some shit
19:49:03 <%window> i wonder
19:49:12 <%window> she told me that she was norse
19:49:30 <%Necrosage> ticks is a compulsive liar
19:49:41 <%window> true
19:49:42 <%Necrosage> she understands and speaks russian
19:49:46 <@Shinden9> She looks southeastern european
19:49:51 <@Shinden9> Not so much slav though
19:49:58 < denkyoki4> ?
19:50:02 <%Necrosage> thats why i said shes from the caucasus i think
People still think that was ticks?
Walk down the hallway. Walk down some flights of stairs. Walk down the hallway. Walk down some flight of stairs. Enter the basement and make my way to the laundry room. Load clothing in the machine. Make my way up. Hear them talk. Hear their music. Hear their TV.
An hour later, discover the clothing was put in the dryer, and that the washer costs a quarter more. Continue that treacherous journey.
Its hard to believe that at this time last year my outlook on life was so grim. I mean, in terms of my social life, things have gotten so much worse, but I feel so much better about myself. Last year, I was completely in the dumps. I was going to school without showering, wearing sandals with socks, my jeans didn't fit, I wasn't washing my hair, etc. This year, I feel like I've turned it around. I haven't gotten much better, but I certainly feel like I have.
I really hope things get better from here. I want to make it out into the real world and turn this ship around completely. I may never get to talk to awkward girl, but I'll be damned if I don't find someone else just as good or better.
I'm glad it's Monday. The weekend went by so slow.
>>273
Hello. No really, it's not. Or is it? Maybe I'm fucking with you - but in what context?
Ku ku ku . . .
Last night mai waifu and I made a nice soup, then hung out all evening. Then I witnessed someone trip out on DXM, vaporized some weed, and worked on an essay about ethics.
Did 750mg of DXM.
First of all I just want to say that shit is disgusting and I am not going near it for another couple of months preferably. Just thinking about it makes me want to puke.
Anyway, I did end up puking sometime after taking it, accidentally woke up my mother who cleaned it up and told me to go lie down. I blamed it on my pills but I'm sure she noticed the weird cough syrup smell... Oh well.
As for the trip itself, I don't remember much really, it all feels like a dream. I had some really absurd, bizarre thoughts and visions. No visual hallucinations, but some thoughts were so vivid I started to wonder if they were indeed real. I distinctly remember thinking I had gone insane permanently and was fucked - kind of paradoxical since I doubt an "insane" person would have that thought. I was terrified though. When I got up and walked it was like I was walking in very distinct steps, like I was following a guide on how to walk. My voice was also really weird I think. When responding to my mother I was telling myself "act normal" but then I blurted out some weird phrase that was completely unrelated to whatever she had asked.
All in all it was a terrifying experience. I don't think I'll repeat it that soon again, but I was left with the feeling that I didn't take enough.
Now I'm just lying in bed recovering. Slept a bit earlier but not much. Drinking water and hoping the nausea will pass. I can't precise why but I'm still feeling strange.
CRAZY
Today I bought some plane tickets to Tokyo, Japan. Leaving Wednesday for a week with the waifu. Would have been nice to be there Christmas but this will suffice.
Girlfriend still out of town. After doing some real deal python programming at work, I called up my friend X. and we smoked and hung out in thrift shops, music stores, cafes, and bookstores. Amazed once again at how flat my favorite barista's chest is. She has a nice voice but her taste in literature is absolute crap, to say nothing about her taste in philosophy and religion.
There's a homeless guy in my town who always wears a helmet and pushes around a cart with blankets and cans and stuff in it. He's the only homeless guy in my town and has some various myths attached to him (Got a 4.0 through college and got a PhD in physics, going on to teach at Stanford before his mental collapse, has an extremely wealthy family and chooses to be homeless, eats cats, etc).
Him and I chatted a bit for the first time after he shouts, "Hey, you look familiar!" about the role of the snake in Eastern religion, oscillating waves in quantum physics, transhumanism, and all that other schizo junk for a while this afternoon. He looks me in the eye, and he says that I'm not like other folks, that I'm on his frequency. "You're a snake. I'm a snake too. 2013 is the year of the snake." Then he shakes the plastic rattlesnake he carries around at me. Nice for an amateur like me to chat with a professional philosopher.
>>278
The famous rule regarding insanity is the catch #22.
>>281
Just jump out a window or something, Emily. Quick fall. Painless. Out like a light, blank before it can be changed. Your genetics aside, you had your life ruined for you early in childhood by your father. And if we look at how you live your daily life, you can't improve. The truly wise man, once overcoming all his desires and his ego, has no choice but to bring death onto himself and thus improve the world around him. Do you want to be remembered as a pitiful shell of a human or as someone who had attained enlightenment?
>>283
I didn't even post that, baka.
Today (yesterday?) I realized I have a hell of a lot of Tumblr followers, drank gin with the waifu & then we fell asleep really early.
Today I got home and I had a new screen on my desk. I don't need two and the color on it is strange and I'm not used to it! Now I have a spare screen and nothing to do with it...
>>287
so weird xD
>>288
randumb xD
It's almost 4:20AM I wonder if I should get high once more before I go to Japan?
Smoke weed every day.
>>291
I don't think there's any law that says that you can't smoke weed while using a Japanese proxy.
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The world needs more excessively-long articles detailing why "The Big Bang Theory (TV Show)" sucks.
Accidentally locked my keys in my apartment after having a meeting with a client. Went down to a friend's place (she got a new apartment) and it was 100% empty, save for her laptop and some of her clothes. We watched TV shows and listened to music while we waited for the pizza. After it came, I decided I'd call up my girlfriend and she invites me over for the night.
I slept on her couch.
"Hmm... I have x dollars in my play fund for this month."
"But I want to buy people Christmas gifts, too."
"What you ought to do is buy 100 hits of acid."
"Then sell them. Sell the acid for ridiculously high prices."
