my ribcage is shrinking, constricting my lungs, making me unable to breathe sufficiently
I must cut open my chest in order to allow my lungs to have breathing room (no pun intended), but I do not have the means of doing it
if a surgeon does not help me, I will die slowly and painfully from suffocation
I also require an oxygen tank, because my lungs are collapsing and failing, despite not being elderly
my heart is beating hundreds and hundreds of times per minute, very forcefully too, squeezing too much blood through my constricted blood vessels, and my whole cardiovascular system will likely fail soon
lungs or heart? which will fail first? who knows... want to make bets on it? har har, funny, right? no, not at all
people on the internet laugh at me because of my concerns, and treat me like the boy who cried wolf, but this is serious, and no one is sympathetic or helpful in any of these situations
and people in real life would just think I'm crazy if I told them of my problems, so I must suffer silently
I think they would rather just have me die
perhaps I would rather die too, I can't stand feeling this way, it is very scary
please help me, I need to breathe
I fear not of death, but I fear the process of dying, which can be slow and painful and horrible
what can I do